Since u left

Every day that passes since you left, i realize how much i really needed u,
u were a part of my life by then&there wasn't anything that could change it.
By that time i knew that i needed u to live,to be happy, to be able to sleep at night,
though i tryed to deny it, i always knew that i needed you,
i know that once i wanted u to go,
but i guess i needed to pass through all this to realize how much u really mean to me,
I dont want to forgive my self, because i always knew that this would happen,
but i dont know what i was thinking,
well i think i was thinking that,
that i didn't need u but i do,
that if u left it wouldn???t afect me but it did
but i didn't know that befor,
though i just needed ur friendship u needed more from me,
something that i just couldn't give u,
my love,
and i'm truely happy that i didn't because look what u've done to me now,
i wonder were u are now,
how u are,
are u even alive
a wonder.
At night i wonder in my dreams trying to remember ur face,
trying to find u,
trying to find ur soul
trying to be with u like the great friends we were.
If death has found u yet, i pray for ur soul
so u go to heaven were u belong
cause it's not ur falt what ur parents did or what ever the people around u did,
u were good and nothing changed that,
ur mmemory is clean, it's pure, it's u.
and till the day i find u again i will wait
and wait
and pry.
lobeu.