sometimes it hurts

I thought he was going to be here for christmas this yr. the dr told us he had 3 months or less but tht was last week. He didn't make it tht long though. His choice though everyone. He did not want to live on machines.


On thanksgiving my dad went into the hptal with COPD and pnamohnia. while there they gave us hope by telling us they did not find any cancer and two days later they called back saying they found cancer in his heart. They gave gim three months to live. While they were trying to take him off the ventalators they found blood clotts on and around his lungs. at this point we're thinking whats the deal? Well they kept trying to slowly pull him off all the tubes and discovered his lungs filling up with blood. It was over. They said the only way for him to live any longer was to stay in th hptal on the vent. He told them he did not want to live on machines so they waited till the whole family was up there to start the morphine and take him off the machines. not even 45 mins later he was gone. He did not cry. If tht was me I would have been scared.I wont cry now either though. My strength will help carry the rest of my family through this. I just wanted to share some things with all of you.


My dad was 62 yrs old. He served 4 yrs in the united states navy. Durring his time in the navy he went awol to marry my mother. He did go back and serve the rest of his time. After getting out of the navy he became a volunteer fire fighter out in N. Pekin and worked at caterpillar for 30 yrs before retiring. Him and my mother were married for a lil over 35 yrs. You don't find love like tht very much anymore.

Wed they have having a military ceramony for him. Where he will be honored with a 21 gun sallute. He asked to be cremated and to have a cup of his ashes held on to until after my mother passes. When she passes we are to take a cup of her ashes and put them with his. Then we are to shake them up to mix em together and they want to be spread on my brother toby's grave.

whispers in the wind

To me you were not just a father, you were my hero

the roll model I never got the chance to follow in your lead.

We think about you but we smile about all the times we shared.

you were the strong sillent type but we always knew you cared.

Our past is filled with great memories tht give us hope for the future.

Its hard to think about the night you left this dreadful corrupted place.

In our hearts we feel your love, in our minds we see your face

We will miss you pop, you really were a great man.

A loving husband and the worlds greatest dad.

Say hi to toby for us, we will see you again some day.

Without you here the world is a lesser place.

J.C.