Mark



This is a personal type blog posting for me, the above picture is actually of me when I was a baby with my brother, its one of like two pictures I have from when we were small. Hopefully its alright that Ive posted it here, if not I can remove it. Please ignore this blog if it in anyway offends you, Im sorry.

Belows a poem type thing I wrote shortly after I got the call that my brother had passed away. And like a short message I kinda just wrote and added in.

I recently was given the chance to get the name Mark. And I was able to get it! This name alone means the world to me, and I will be forever thankful to everyone involved with this being able to happen for me.

I know to some this isnt considered "healthy", dwelling on the past or holding onto someone that isnt here any longer, but for me it is. This type of thing helps me cope better with this on and offline. I am handling this alot better over the past few years, but its still really hard for me sometimes. We are all different and different things help different people, so please dont judge me. Thank you-

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Remember When by Rue


Remember when you said youd push me the highest at the park on the swings when we were smaller? I do

Remember when youd promised to tie my shoes because I couldnt ever figure out how? I do

Remember all those times you covered for me when Id forget to do things and take the blame? I do

Remember that one time when Id hurt my ancle and you carried me on your back the rest of the way back down the mountain? I do

Remember my first date? Haha and how you insisted you be the third wheel because "he looked sketchy". I do

Remember when you promised you'd be great at basic training, and to be ready to race when you got back?
Haha I do..

Remember when you got deployed? Promised youd be back soon? I do...

Remember that last call? When youd said youd always be my big brother and protecting little sisters is what big brothers do? Everyday I do. .

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11.15.1986/4.5.2014

I miss you everyday Mark and I always will. You wernt just a brother to me, you were my best friend. We went through everything together and always managed to be happy because wed made it out together yknow? You were always my champion, haha protecting me from everything or anyone. Im making it, youd be proud of me I think.