@Sizzle oh trust me I know. How you got them is how you lose them when it comes to a cheater. It doesn't help though in all honesty. I'm sitting here missing my husband so much. I can't stop thinking about him. I haven't eaten since the night before he left, September 1 is the last time I ate. Yesterday was our 4 month wedding anniversary and I knew he woke up next to her, spent the day with her, went to bed with her. Told her he loves her, I just can't take it. It hurts so bad. He blames me for his family not helping him, no that's his own fault. He blames me for his child support being so backed up they'll take his license, no again his own fault. His ex-father-in-law is trying to find his address for some reason too. Meanwhile I'm just sitting here broken hearted, missing my husband.
But... there is this. And I know it to be true. In the end no matter what I will be ok. I will be more than ok. I will be happy again, I will be stronger. I will be able to love again. I will find someone who treats me like the grand prize, not a consolation prize or as if I'm just a place holder until they find someone/something better. I will rise from the ashes that is my life right now as a the phoenix does. And like the phoenix I will be beautiful and able to soar free. I know all this. It doesn't help at the moment, but it will help in the future, and it will come true.