Him

I'm so close to him.
Yet so detached.
If we ever stop being friends.
I don't know what I'd do.
If we become really close like before,
I'll be happy.
When we stop talking,
I don't want to bother him,
so I don't try to talk to him...
He looks at me,
in an odd way sometimes.
We've been friends for so long.
Sometimes we're really close,
but sometimes we drift apart.
He always says, "We should hang out!"
After we haven't talked for a few days.
When can he?
he always has something to do with his somebody else, or he's busy.
He confuses me sometimes.
I feel so weird around him...
he'll try to get my attention...
but I think about what to do.
What's wrong with me?
I don't know how I feel about him.
I beat myself up about this.
I just feel...
It's better to be close to someone you love,
then to not be with them at all.
He says I'm his best friend.
He told me,
"I can trust you with anything."
He knows he can tell me anything...
He tells me about these girls.
So many,
I just think...wow, another one.
He really is my best friend.
I guess it's meant to stay that way.
He's moving far away now...
I wish he'd try to get his dad to take custody of him.
That's a long shot though.
I haven't talked to him since the day of he dance.
I don't think I'll try.