Things I Would Never Admit To

My name is not Fiona.
And it would never be no matter how many times I say so.

I act as though I am so full of myself,
when actually I live in self-denial.

I am materialistic,
and I do care to doll up for the person I love
no matter how many times I insist that it is just being
a plastic.

And yes, I am one of the silly girls
who loves someone so much,
I would die for him.

I sing in the bathroom when I am happy.
I cry in the bathroom when I am upset.
I never show my feelings on my face.
It is not like anyone cares.

I used to think that love didn't and wouldn't exist
in this selfish society.
But I guess it did.

I have lived long enough to figure out
that things don't go the way we want them to.

I am a total loner in reality,
I've got no friends because I hate them.
They are selfish and two-faced.

I find joy in silence,
and I believe my life is only meant to be shared with
one other person.
And, I've found that one person.

He is the one I say ily to.
He is the one that captivate my heart.
He is the one that live in my soul.
He is the one who means everything to my life.

And yet, he left.
I can live without him,
but I choose not to.