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Sassy

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Weight Loss Journey

1st Oct 2016 06:43

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Sassy 12 Comments

Weight Loss Journey

8 years, 1 month & 29 days ago

1st Oct 2016 06:43

I have never had a blog that I have actually used for /myself/, but today while looking in the mirror I felt a high sense of accomplishment that I just want to shout to the world. Its a long one, Im sure no one will make it through the whole thing, but its mainly more for myself then anything anyway.
To anyone who is losing weight/wants to lose weight, I will encourage you to do so/not give up. While it may seem like you will never get there, eventually if you do it right, you WILL get there and you WILL be proud enough to hold your head up high. Dont let the numbers on the scale rule you. They dont determine the kind of person you actually are.
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All of my life I have been a /bigger/ kid. The only time I havent was probably around really early childhood. Im not sure when I started packing on the weight, but after high school it packed on more so. The scale was the enemy, and I only really weighed myself was when we went to go visit my grandma which we did so about once a year. For afew years in high school my weight was pretty constant around 250 pounds, and I wore a US size 18 pants. Two years after I graduated high school, I got my first job (afew things delayed me from getting a job alot earlier). Realization hit when I was forced to buy size 22 women pants when buying clothes for our uniform. I felt awful, and around this time we got a scale for the house, and hesitantly stepping on it, I found my numbers had risen from 250 in high school to around 285. (the highest weight that Iv been that I know of)
A year went by at my job, and doing nothing other then working, my numbers THANKFULLY dropped back down to about 255 pounds and size 18s. While still big, I wasnt as big as I once had been.
February of this year was my breaking point. I decided I didnt want to continue the way I was. I couldnt continue the way I was. I cried more then anything at that time, and I even had come to realize all my life I hid my weight insecurities behind fat jokes (of myself) and laughed them off when I was around other people. I decided to make a change. In the start of my weight loss I was doing it in a wrong manner, but at the time my only thought was I want to lose weight, and I dont really care how. Basically I let myself eat once a day, and only one serving when I did (though I let myself eat whatever I wanted). From late Feb to late may I did this, and I had lost about 30 pounds and was down to about 220.
That was when things changed for a better course for my weight loss. My mom started a diet. She was shocked to hear Id lost so much weight so fast and asked what I had been doing. Thats when it really hit me, I was ASHAMED of the way I decided to lose weight. Not to mention all of the times I felt light headed, or my vision randomly darkening and straightening out afew seconds later. I never have told her. Instead I said I had cut out sodas and said work was the cause (both true, but the full truth I never gave). After her weight loss was starting, I noticed her diet might just be worth it, and i jumped on board. Slowly I let myself eat more then what I had the few months prior. I snacked abit more on things my diet would allow. Sometimes even ate twice a day and still lost weight. I was happy. (Me and my mom currently are still on a weightloss battle c; ).
My first weightloss goal I had set for myself was 180 pounds or a size 10 pants. Afew months ago (late july I believe) I was able to by my first pair of size 10s and I loved it. My weight was barely under 200 at the time, but I had reached a 'size goal' I had set for myself. At that time I realized I still didnt like the way I looked, and was going to continue on my diet. So I imagined a new goal. 165 pounds. At the time (around 195 pounds) It didnt seem manageable and was just a pipe dream of mine.
Currently Im right at about 181 pounds,and while I still have awhile to go before I hit my goal of 165, Im proud to say in the past year and 8 months I have lost abit over 100 pounds. I feel like a completely different person. Even as far as I have already come while looking in the mirror, I still have thoughts of needing to lose weight to be happy (though iv learned over the course of this, that that isnt how that actually works, but the thought is still present). However today I found myself looking in the mirror and actually seeing how far I have come. I have a huge sense of accomplishment for myself, and i wanted to roll around abit in it today.
The picture on the left was taken about a few weeks before I started my job. Therefore, it being my highest weight. The picture on the right was taken about 6 weeks ago when I was about 190-195 pounds.
[img]http://i.imgur.com/dQNBhXi.jpg[/img]
While my diet at this point is getting boring (even with the cheat day I allow myself once a week) Im going to stick with it. After I reach my goal weight Im determined to not yoyo back, and change my eating habits for good. Im not wasting the effort i have put in, just to be unhealthy and unhappy again to have to restart.
I think im on a better path for where my life will lead, or atleast im hoping.

Sassy

Sadly, I fell off, and Im back to 205 pounds. Im alittle sad about it and need to start losing weight again Sad

6 years, 6 months & 11 days ago

22nd May 2018 19:07

Awesome, keep it up, going through same thing myself right now... great job

6 years, 6 months & 11 days ago

22nd May 2018 18:55

Sass I'm so proud of you!! You're super inspiring. Love ya

8 years, 1 month & 29 days ago

1st Oct 2016 13:57

This is amazing, Sassy, omg!! This is making me pretty motivated, lol.
Last I checked,I was about 240 pounds. My highest is 250. I know it adds to my depression, for sure. I hate the way I look and feel gross. I havenever been "skinny" nor do I yhink I ever will be, but I have alwa dreamed of being at least 165 lbs. Idk what to do. My will power is awful, tbh. I would love any advice or diet ideas if you would possibly share them.
Super proud of you!!!

8 years, 1 month & 29 days ago

1st Oct 2016 13:55

Oh my gosh, you are so beautiful, hun! Rock on, girl!

You can do it!

8 years, 1 month & 29 days ago

1st Oct 2016 11:18

you look amazing sassy <3 congrats on how far you've come

you're doing great!

8 years, 1 month & 29 days ago

1st Oct 2016 11:09

Sassy, you are young, beautiful, and in control. Congratulations on setting realistic goals and sticking to them.

8 years, 1 month & 29 days ago

1st Oct 2016 10:58

awwww sassypants.

8 years, 1 month & 29 days ago

1st Oct 2016 09:20

Sassy

Thank you guys. I feel like I have come so far, but at the same time, I feel as though I still have so far to go.
Its not been the easiest thing in the world, and many times I wonder how on earth I let myself get that far. How I never truly "saw" what I was doing, or why my family never mentioned it to me, Ill never really know. Now that Im aware of myself, Im determined to never go back. Its been too long of a fight to give up and go back. Ill see the end of this. <3

8 years, 1 month & 29 days ago

1st Oct 2016 07:24

This is really inspiring

I'm glad that you've made it this far. It really is something to be proud of, and I know you'll end up reaching your goal

8 years, 1 month & 29 days ago

1st Oct 2016 07:21