weekly journal entry

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February 3, 2008

he people! i'm gonna try something new, and write one thing every week in this journal. i'll start with today, and over the next feww weeks i'll be posting things like stories, to songs, or even just how my day went. if you have any ideas on what i should write, just post a comment!
well here's my first entry:

(song i wrote)

Why do I keep pretending I???m someone I???m not?
I know it gets me nowhere, but I can help what I got.
I???m full of misery and I gotta bleed to just realize I???m alive.
But at least I know I???m not alright.

(chorus)
Oh whats wrong with me?
Oh whats wrong with me?
I need more than morphine to keep me alive,
So just let me dance in the rain and finally die.
Oh whats wrong with me?
Oh whats wrong with me?
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Life isn???t fair, and I know it.
It???s been more than cruel to me over the years.
Still I wake up every morning wishing I didn???t, just to make everone around me happy.

chorus)

When will I stop pleasing everyone, and just be me?
I know it???s not gonna be easy, but I gotta be who I wanna be.

(chorus)
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february 12, 2008
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hey guys, it's been more than a week since i posted, but i couldn't get on since my RSD flared up. i guess i didn't tell you before, but i have a desiese called Reflex Sympathic Dystrophy. it's when the brain sends pain signals to any of your hands and feet, even though your not really hurt. i'm home-schooled because, if somebody bumps my foot, i'd probably be on crutched for a few weeks.

oh but guess what! one of the members of the i go to, asked me to look through a few documents with her. they dated back to the late eighteen-hundreds! i was toutching history, and i'm still obsessing about it.

the most exciting yet though, is: hold on. i'll put a dramatic pause in here to add to the suspense:
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I'M GOING TO NEW YORK THIS SUMMER TO VISIT MY COUSIN!!! she has the life i always wanted. she's married with no kids, and she draws for a living! all she does for fun is travel around the world with her husband. god i want that life...

well i'll talk to ya next week,

punkrXgrl


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february 17, 2008
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hey people. guess what?i saved a church today! i'm a member to a church that is going bankrupt, and one of my friends is a very loyal member to the church that offered to look back hundreds of years, in files holding all of the money info.

i found about 3,000 dollars in hidden funds, and now the church will be saved!

on other news, the church is holding a sleepover, so i won't be on mara for a few days next week. i love the church's sleepovers. all the girls sleep in one room, and the boys ing another. the girls get to watch movies, and do pretty much whatever they want!we're going bowling too!i'll talk to ya people later!

peace,luv,&LOVE,

punkrXgrl