The Outcast
15 years, 10 months & 29 days ago
28th Dec 2008 15:11 This is a true story.
There was a girl who grew up sweet and loving. She had great friends, her family loved her and she loved life. when she was about 7 she realised her dad kept ignoring her. He paid attention to her 4 younger siblings, but never her. When she was 8 her dad was sent over seas for a year. She thought that he didn't love her because he had left for a whole year. Only weeks after the girl turned 9 her father announced that the family was moving across the country at dinner. She ran to her room and sobbed for hours. She knew that he must hate her. All of her friends and family were her. She had everychilds dream of a perfect life, and he was making her leave it all behind. After they moved she found a new friend but, she had changed. The girl started to dislike life. She kept to herself more and more. when she turned 11 she noticed that her family was starting to feel differently about her too. She realised that they didn't hate her, but they were disapointed in her. She tried so hard to please her parents. She studied everyday, she cleaned the house with out being asked, she willfully gave up her weekends to babysit. After many months, she started to get aggitated. No madder what she did, she was still a shame to her familys name. Anger boiled inside of her untill she could no longer hold it in. She exploded upon her parents one day. She couldn't keep the anger in any more. One day she was home alone she became thirsty. SO she was reaching for a cup when she accidently knocked over a mug, it crashed to the floor and shattered. She was mad that she was so careless to knock the mug over. As she was cleaning up the peices of glass, she accidently sliced her arm. Her anger vanished, when she felt the pain. She had an ephipany. She figured that if she hurt herself she would not harm others. So she started cutting her wrists, she wore hoodies and long sleeves all the time. Her mother put her in counsoling with the rest of the family (lets just say they had issues) She knew then that it was bad for her to cut herself, it was stupid. But it was already to late. She had gotten in the habbit of cutting herself everytime she became emotional, which was very often. She struggled to stop. All but 3 friends left her. But they helped the girl through it. Now she thinks of suicide but will never commit it, for she made a promise to a friend. She knew how it felt when someone did not keep their promise, it hurt. And promises made to her were never kept, so she tried to keep them.
This is a true story, not a forward.